Fear Of Fail

Fear of Fail is one of my best weakness which prevents me for trying many things but which i give it a try i guess i get it well and make it correct at most of it.

Last few monthes i get some idea and i am postponing it so long time from making a real action for it as i am afraid of its fail, although i tried it before and succssed and i made a great repitation at it but it was in another field of what i am thinking of now

i feel i am so histeated from making real action for it, the idea is in my head from long time and it almost was one of my dreams from years and years may be from my childhood but it was more huge!

ok i get the decision to face my fear and i will begin working on it hard, and make it my part time work with the concept of google 20% time. hope to make it well and get my idea done and beat my fear :D

Change - 1

Last period, i find me and a lot of my friends lost in life not in mood for different reasons, what i get that we lost because we were away from Allah, and we lost in the world without guide, internal spiritual guide.
i take a desicion with a friend ( i consider sister ) to change and begin to enstrange our relation with Allah.
i pray for her and all of us to change to better persons.
i thank her for this begin to change, and encouraging me to change. hope we all change to better.
i guess the world too begin to change, for many reasons. and the begin is from US by Obama!
people may say i am seeing US is the axis, center of the world, i say no, it is a big power in the world, beside it Eurp, China, Russia, .... but the most effective is US.
Russia and China begin to produce themselvies agian as new power we can depend on in the future.
these some notes and memories for change for myself and world i will blog others soon.

SOS Again - SOS 9

Last Friday, i went to SOS Music Festival 9, it was quite good, but i there was some notes on the behavior of people and the organization. go to the organizers first, the timeplan for the bands was not annonced and not none even on the day it was not clear for them.
for the behavior of people, on the entrance gate the cloud of people make it mixed and the boys doesn't care if they hitting girls or not, really it was bad i felt sick of this, the second is at the festival itself near to the stage the mix of the boys and girls was so sick i saw very bad seens, really i felt i am in a pron show.
People may say i am throwback or something, no i love life, and also i love to respect the humans, and i am againest the sexual harassment against women. and there are must be a limit for everything, limit for freedom, freedom stops when it hits others feelings and this hits the religion before our feelings.
One Last word, i have to thank friends i was with for their hosting me and for the company that day, Thank You All.

Autumn

Autumn season, what it is meaning for you??

i am sure all of you will say it means the dead land, i will say ooh, yeah and what else, most of you will say nothing, i will say it is not only this, Autumn for nature is a beginning point to start again, it is the period that the nature get off all the bad at it and start again a new life, i guess we all have to thing in this way. put reset points in your life to evaluate and begin in new way. this pic an evidence to this; the autumn at the nature and a man is thinking for what he passed by.

The last period of my life i was like this evalutating manythings in my life and i get the results and hopefully i get the lesson and begin new beginning good.

Nature is the greatest teacher and we have to learn from it good, nothing in its process is going for nothing, or without some wisdom in it.

the last word Autumn is for new begin not for dead only, it is for killing bad stuff and begin new stuff.

Back Again

Sorry for not posting last period, there was manythings turned me off and busy last period
the most interesting events happened were 23July memory, my birthday, new work with new people, Ramadan, 6Oct Vactory, .. these were the main things.
in this period i restructured manything in my life and still restructuring.
i will speak later about manything, but now i feel angry for what i don't know and sad too.